Baxter State Park, continued



Cathedral was quite a workout. We climbed more than hiked, using one or both hands most of the time because the ascent was so steep. The boulders were huge and sometimes we had very little to hold onto while we pulled ourselves through crevices, over outcroppings and up the trail. It was hard work, and as we climbed above treeline, our sources of shade were disappearing.
The climbing was kind of exhilarating- I liked using my whole body instead of just my legs, and the routes required some forethought and problem solving. Here Shana points to where we're headed. (unfortunately that was NOT the top of the trail... just an outcropping that prevented me from seeing exactly how much further we had to climb.)
By this time the heat was blazing- I'd brought way more water than I thought I'd need, but it was disappearing quickly. Sweat dripped off my nose and chin and the temperature probably got up around 90. Yet still I smiled! (I didn't know how far we were from the top.) We crossed paths with a group of hikers on their way down (Cathedral is officially "too steep to recommend as a descent route," but apparently these guys thought it preferable to Knife Edge). We talked about how tough this trail was and one guy looked at me and said, "Yeah, especially with that house on your back!!" I was only carrying snacks, water, first aid stuff, and warmer clothes in case the temp dropped near the top, but it sure felt like I was carrying a house.
The view to our left was pretty impressive.
We'd planned to climb the peak, cross a notoriously dangerous path called Knife Edge to a smaller peak, and then decend Katahdin via a trail called the Helon Taylor. Knife Edge was formed when two glaciers ground against each other, creating an extremely narrow and sheer ridge between the two peaks. At times the path is less than a yard wide with sheer drops on either side. I'd really been looking forward to the experience of crossing it, probably even more than reaching the peak itself. The description of the Cathedral Trail didn't mention fatalities, as the Knife Edge description did, but it was still an intense climb. Sometimes when I began to climb or reach for a foothold, I'd realize it wasn't feasible. As I looked back to find the last good foothold, I'd see my boot, the rock it needed to be on, and behind the rock... the other side of the mountain. Losing traction on the rock face or losing my balance would definitely have consequences.
We'd been climbing for a couple hours and I was drenched in sweat. I drank water like it was going out of style, but I still felt exhausted and shakey. I finally allowed myself to consider the possibility that maybe I couldn't do Knife Edge today. I was having to rest every 15-20 steps and still couldn't seem to catch my breath. I was frustrated with the heat, my dwindling water supply, my slow pace, and what seemed like an endless trail ahead. At times I just wanted to cry but I knew it would only dehydrate me more. Time also became a factor- we needed to get back to the base of the mountain by dark, and on these types of trails, hurrying wasn't really an option.

That's an interesting aspect of mountain climbing and backpacking as sports... if you do decide to quit, you're really only halfway done. You still have to get back to where you started. Knife Edge, which is the ridge over my head in this picture, was waiting for me at the peak. I had to decide by then which way to go.
Despite the relentless heat, we passed some snow patches on the way up. Had I seen them sooner, I probably would have clambered over anything to lay down in one, but my attention was focused only on the next step I had to make. Shana noticed this patch after we'd both passed it.
Cathedral ended and met up with Saddle Trail, which led to the peak. The last section was much smaller chunks of loose granite that moved and turned and clinked together under each footstep. It was like walking up a huge pile of bricks- not good for the ankles. But at last we made it- Baxter Peak, the highest point on Katahdin, elevation 5,267 feet.
This was the extent of the celebration I could muster. My ankles ached from hours of launching from and landing on unhealthy angles. Soaked with sweat, I was alternately chilled when the wind picked up and overheated when we were on the move. To the left was Knife Edge, which led to Helon Taylor Trail, which went to the base of the mountain. This route was shorter in miles but much more difficult. To the right was the Saddle Trail, which was a longer but less intense, and would lead us back to Chimney Pond, where we would take the Chimney Pond trail back to the base.
Speaking of Chimney Pond... there it is. From the summit, it hardly looks like more than a puddle.
This is the beginning of Knife Edge. It's as much of it as I saw. While Shana and I were packing and planning at home, a news show was examining the benefits of music therapy for patients of brain trauma. The music therapy wasn't that interesting, but the patients stuck with me... the 22-year-old former football player who was learning to walk and speak again after a head injury in a car accident. The father of three who couldn't raise his arms to hug his wife because of a bad fall. Normal people whose lives and bodies were devastated in an instant, because of bad luck or a bad decision. If my legs had been feeling stronger, or if there was no time pressure, I may have tried to cross Knife Edge. I probably could have made it even as things were. But I decided it wasn't worth the risk, so we turned and headed down the Saddle Trail.
The Saddle Trail wasn't exactly the easy walk we were hoping for- much of it was the crumbling, shifting, unsteady granite chunks we'd walked on before, which meant more ankle wrenching.
From the Saddle Trail we could see a nice profile view of the Cathedral Trail.
Chimney Pond seemed even further away as we began the steep part of the Saddle descent. Note the blood on Shana's arm- we experienced a variety of mosquitos, black flies, and biting flies, especially these deer flies that made you bleed before you even scratched the bite. I had an aura of biting insects for most of the hike- for some reason they liked my blood better than Shana's, although when we'd sit and rest together, some would defect over and begin pestering her.
Saddle's descent is a rockslide of pink granite. We took turns walking first to discover the wobbly, slippery, and loose rocks that crumbled and rolled beneath our feet. By some miracle we made it back with no serious ankle injuries. For the last few miles we trudged like zombies- all we could do was put one foot in front of the other and know that sooner or later we'd be finished. At times I wanted to be done so badly that I was stricken with a desire to run, but my body simply could not comply. I told Shana that I kind of wanted to try to sprint, just to see which parts of my lower extremeties would break first. We arrived back at camp a little after 8:00, nearly 12 hours after our departure.
At the end of the day the mountains still looked huge and impossible, even after we'd stood on the peak. It was a tough day, but I'm glad we did it. I regret not being able to cross Knife Edge, but I don't regret my decision. Mountains don't exist to be conquered, and the idea of tiny specks of humankind claiming dominance over one is laughable. It is nature's temporary indifference that allows us to reach a summit, and if we celebrate our ability to stand there and breath that air, the victory is not over the ground beneath us, but the limitations within us.
Attention! Look out for three-legged moose in the road!